Not going well

I have not practice for a while on my card making, things here have been chaos my partner have been ill from before last Christmas,  there was something wrong with liver so he been on this treatment which should repair the damage to liver but it made him really weak.  The treatment should end on the 10th of  October this year. I have a special need son as well he is been hard work the year more than normal.  then on Tuesday my younger son had the back of head smash open by other older boy so had to take him to hospital on Tuesday evening so been keeping my eye on him.   Than there the normal running the house, walking the dog, there still to get school uniform, holiday clothes for the boys as there dad and grandparent are taking them to Devon for a few days least i get break Oh i got to book a coach ticket to got and see my lovely grandson for the 1st time at the end of the month.  than got to get the kids ready for school and on top of than i am depress, i suffer from depression to so not a good time for me. I am so scare going up to see my grandson and his mum the live in bracknell.  Since living in Wales have on been on the bus a couple times by self  only gone a few miles and i suffer from panic attack as well so i don't know how i going to on a coach for a few hours by self.  HAPPY DAYS ARE HERE.